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Name: David
Country: United States
State: Tennessee
Birthday: 6/7/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Gillian, Sleeping, Gillian And of course your mid-day nap, gillian.... that snooze right after you eat.... oh yeah gillian... also i have long bouts with NOT SEEING gillian...
Expertise: Sleeping
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Member Since:
5/8/2002
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| - Sole Survivor
WoW i havent updated in a minute i was at the hospital all weekend
visiting Joe W who i knew from way way way back. I cant believe how
close he came to dieing and boy your still not outta the park i hope
you have a good recovery and call me soon.Scotty wow dude i hope to
keep in touch man it was just by chance i seen you in the gas station
and heard about joe even with the circumstances i had a blast with you
man "SCOTTY DOOOOONT" lol. Mrs. Jenny Im so sorry about everything. Ill
have to come to Those West Virginia Islands lmao Miss yall I was taken
away from someone very special this weekend who i missed dearly baby i
love you.... dont yell at me. and i hope i can see you like today?? lol
ily with all i got.
David Stewart Williams
WAIT NO SCOTTY FUCKIN DONTTTTTT!!!!!! haha
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| Dear Daddy,
Daddy i'm sorry i wasn't the son you needed when you needed me most. I
hate my self and blame myself for your death. When you were at the
hospital all alone you just wanted me to come up there but i was to
busy half assed takin care of the house and bein with my friends. And
when you told me the doctors were saying your kidneys were fine, but
the really weren't, why didnt i call and make sure. Why did I always
yell at you? You made me mad sometimes you needed it but i never should
have. i cry just thinking about you and how much you really meant to me
im crying right now. I want you here with me daddy its so hard taking
care of mom without you i never realized it was this hard on you. Maybe
if i would have gone back to school sooner and made you a proud man you
wouldnt have let yourself go down. i cant stop crying. If i would have
tried more than i did to talk to you even though you never wanted to
talk to me i could have broke through to you. you were once a great man
to everyone else and your a great man to me still i only wish to be as
good as you were. I miss you more than ever every day i think of you
and have to fight crying ive gotten used to having no feeling over the
past couple of years. I feel so cold inside like a machine doing an
assigned task day in and day out. It breaks my heart to not see you or
hear you say i love you DAMNIT I cant quit crying. i have to put this
somewhere its been inside to long. You were such a good dad growing up
always with me or doing something with me and after mom had her stroke
you just got down and it made me mad that daddy wasnt the same anymore
and you didnt care about yourself anymore. All the model rockets all
the airplanes all the toy robots you built for me everything you did
means the World to me and i love you so much WHY ARENT YOU HERE DAMNIT
i cant take it the only thing keeping me sane is mom and gillian.
Hindsight is 20/20 if i had to do it over again maybe i would cherrish
the cathching the planes the cars the rockets the everything you did
for me i just want to talk to you one more time hear your voice not to
tell me what to do i know what to do im doing it, but to tell me its ok
and that you still love me and im not as bad a son i feel i am im soo
sorry dad i love you sooo much i just want to make you proud. i want to
hug you and feel your heart beat on my face again like i used to.Hell
hath no fear like this. you never even heard me say i love you on that
last ride to the ambulance because i never said it. i remember your
face your hazel eyes starring at me with fright and joy all at the same
time because you knew it was over, i didnt. Daddy where are you? I need
you..... i hope they have computers in heaven.
Love Your Son,
David Stewart Williams
sorry for the ramble i was just pouring my thoughts out
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| Why is it we allways fight on the phone but then when we are together
its perfect? I hate fighting. I love you i want to grow out of this
foolish stage of stupid fights and hang ups. I just want it to STOP. I love her, does she know how much? If i died would i be her only one or would she move on like she was supposed too? If she died how would i live with out her. "Shes goin to heaven so I'd have to be good so i could see my baby..."We never see each other. I think about her all the time(but she doesnt think so). Thoughts are never ending but weblogs are good night self. I love you.
-David S.Williams
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| Fuck what life throws at you throw that shit back,
Fuck what people say to you yell that shit back,
Fuck what people do to you they'll get that shit back.
-David Fucking Williams Jr.
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| MERRY CHRISTMAS DAVID!!!!! I LOVE YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
_GiLLian | | |
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